Umlwano Wohle Wempilo Yakho

Ukulwa Kwendlela Yakho

Genesis 32:22-32

NguDavid Felker

Ndakazisiyeni ukuba nivule amaBhayibheli akho kuGenesis isahluko 32; Genesis 32. Kutholakala ekhasini 27 kwiBhayibheli lebandla phambi kwako. Futhi ngaphambi kokuba sifunde, into okufanele uyicabange. Ukuphila kwami kwashintsha ngonaphakade njengeyana lapho uyethu wangisayisisa kwifilimu engiyithandayo kakhulu, engiyibonile kungenzeka izikhathi ezingama-923, iHoosiers. Futhi imayelana neqembu le-basketball lesikole esiphakeme sase-Indiana, iHickory Huskers. Futhi ngiyayithanda ifilimu. Njengeyana, ngayithanda ngenxa yetimu yokulwa phansi, uDavide ngokumelene noGolayathi. Futhi ngayithanda ngenxa yokugcizelela eqenjini kunokuba umuntu ngamnye. Futhi ngayithanda, yiqiniso, ngenxa yomculo omangalisayo. Kodwa njengoba ngikhule, ngiyithandile kakhulu. Futhi kungenxa yokuthi ibuza futhi iphendula imibuzo eminingi, enzulu, yenhliziyo mayelana nokuhlengwa, mayelana nothando, mayelana nokuluthwa, mayelana nobungani.

Kuneemifanekiso eminingi emangalisayo kuwo wonke, kodwa ikakhulu yimuvi mayelana noshintsho. Ngabe ushintsho luyenzeka? Ngoba kukhona leqembu le-basketball elincane lase-Indiana eligcwele uk pride nabantu ngabanye. Futhi ubuza, “Ngabe bangaba mnandi kangakanani? Ngabe isilinganiso sabo siyahamba ngaphi? Ngabe bangahamba kude kangakanani? Ngabe bangazithoba ngokwanele ukuze babe mnandi ngakunye?” Futhi kukhona loqeqeshi omusha, oqeqeshi uNorman Dale, yena uhlangabezana nokwedlula kwesikhathi esidlule kodwa unikezwa ithuba lesibili. Futhi ucabanga, “Ngabe angashintsha? Ngabe angaba ngumuntu ohlukile? Ngabe isikhathi esidlule sakhe singaphola?” Futhi kukhona umuntu odakwa wasekhaya, uShooter, oqeqeshi uDale anesisaftu esingenakuphikwa kuye. Futhi mhlawumbe ngenxa yezinto zakhe siqu, uqinisekisa ukuba yiqeqeshi lakhe elisizayo nomngani wakhe othembekile. Futhi ubuzwa, “Ngabe uShooter angahlala kude nokudakwa? Ngabe angaba ngumuntu ohlukile? Ngabe angaba ngumuntu ongcono? Ngabe angaba nguyise othembekile noyintshiseko ngaye?” Futhi kuwo wonke umuvi, ufuna ngokuqinile ukubona lezi zinto zenzeka. Ufuna ngokuqinile ukubona ushintsho. Kodwa leqembu elinepride loqeqeshi elinebaggage lo msebenzisi odakwa wasekhaya wonke abantu abaphukile. Futhi bonke balimele. Futhi bonke bahamba ngokuchema ngezindlela ezihlukile. Kodwa umuvi uyavela; umuvi uyavela kuye kwenzeke indaba enhle yosinthsho. Ngiyathanda iHoosiers ngoba ikhumbuza inhliziyo yami ukuthi ushintsho luyenzeka.

Ngabe Ushintsho Luyenzeka?

Ukuthi ubonile lo msebenzi wefilimu noma ungabonanga, lokho kuyavumelana nathi ngoba eminye yemibuzo yezinto zabantu ongayibuza ukuthi, “Ngingashintsha? Ingabe ukushintsha kungenzeka?” Wonke umuntu ubhekene nakho. Ngumbuzo ojulile kakhulu wokwakho ukuthi mhlawumbe ubuza ngamandla kothile oyedwa empilweni yakho. “Ingabe bayashintsha?” Mhlawumbe kukhona umuntu okuyo oyigugu kakhulu ongadinga ukushintsha futhi ubuza, “Ingabe bayashintsha?” Kodwa uma ukunokwenzeka kwenhliziyo yakho, ngumunye wemibuzo etsisekayo kakhulu onayo. “Ngidinga ukushintsha. Ngidinga ukuhluka. Angikwazi ukuhlala njengoba nje nginjalo.” Futhi uyazi, ungacabanga ukuthi kungaba yinto elula kakhulu emhlabeni ukuzishintsha. Kufana nokuthi mhlawumbe kunzima ukushintsha intshala yakho. Kufana nokuthi mhlawumbe ukhona apha futhi intshala yakho i-disorderly nawe uyazi, abafundi, mhlawumbe zikhona izinto nge-esikoleni sakho ezingalunganga. Kunzima ukushintsha isikole sakho. Zikhona izinto ngobudlelwane bakithi nobungani. Kunzima ukushintsha izinto esiziyo ukuthi zidinga ukushintsha ngobudlelwane bakithi nobungani. Kodwa ungacabanga, “Yebo, kodwa ngingazishintsha.” Futhi yinto enzima kakhulu.

Ndipo ndikhula, ngiyacinga, njengoKristu, uya thwala. Unga thwala wena uqalekile, unga thwala yona imfuhlo efihlakeleyo. Nezigwebo nezikwafo neendlela ezingaqhelekanga zentliziyo yakho. Wenza ntoni ngaloo mfuhlo? Yiyo loo mbuzo. Ukhathazekile utshintsho. Uyafuna utshintsho. Kodwa awunayo nayiphi na ingcamango yendlela yokwenza kutsho kwenzeke ngendlela yokwenyaniso nehlala. IJenesis 32 yeyamanye amacandelwana afundwayo ebhayibhilini. Yindaba yomyadwa omatshisayo oyena ntshabalalo. Yindaba yomyadwa omatshisayo oyena ntshabalalo yena usempini yobomi bakhe. Oku kuthe okuhlala yinto etshintsha yonke into ebomini bakaYakobe xa afumanisa ejamelana noThixo. Oku yempini yobomi bakhe yena uYakobe uyatshintshwa. Kwaye ke kaloku masinikelen ngqalelo kwLizwi likaThixo. Ngaphambi kokuba senze njalo, masaye kuye ekuthandazeni. Masithandaze.

Yise, uyabonga ukuba Ungumhlobo wezono. Uyabonga ukuba Ungamandla enqaba. Sithandaza ukuze Usirharhebe imilindelo yethu kule nimasta sikhona nje elolunye uSuku. Yaye Yise, ngaba Ungayanceda ukuba silindele ukudibana nawe? Kwaye Ungathetha ngoku, uMoya kaThixo, Ungathetha ngam, uMoya nomoya? Sithandaza egameni likaYesu, amen.

Ijenesis 32, eqala kwivesi 22. Oku kwLizwi likaThixo:

Iyo ndawo u [Jakobe] avuka khona, wathatha umkakhe ababili, izincele zakhe ezimbili, nezingane zakhe eziyishumi nanye, wadabula umfula iJaboko. Wabathatha wabagqithisa umfula, nazo zonke izinto zakhe. UJakobe wahlala yedwa. Umuntu wamthinta, walwisa naye mpaka kwafika ekuseni. Umuntu akabona ukuthi akamunqobi uJakobe, wathinta isigaxa sendo yakhe, isandatho sikaJakobe saduka ngokuqaqa njengoba elwisa naye. Wathi, “Nkosi, khulula, sekuqala imfe.” UJakobe wathi, “Ngeke ngikukhulule uze ungibekele.” Yena wathi kuye, “Uyini igama lakho?” Wathi, “Jakobe.” Wathi, “Igama lakho alinakubizwa uJakobe, kodwa uIsrayeli, ngokuthi ulwene naThixo, nalabantu, waphumelela.” UJakobe wambuza, “Nkosi, ngicela ungitshele igama lakho.” Wathi, “Kutheni uyangibuza igama lakho?” Wamkhulekela khona. UJakobe wathi igama lendaweni iPeniyeli, “Ngokuthi ngibonile uThixo ubuso nobuso, nokho umphefumulo wami usindisiwe.” Ilanga lavuka kuye njengoba edlula iPenuweli, ekhubazekile ngomhlanganyana wakhe. Yingakho kuze kube namuhla abantu bakwa-Israyeli bangadli ithambo lendhlanga elise sigaxeni sendo, ngokuthi wathinta isigaxa sendo kaJakobe kwithambo lendhlanga.

Ili yilizwi likaThixo.

Khu ngifuna thina sicabangele ekuseni njengoba sibheka le mpi edume kakhulu phakathi nobusuku – uJakobe uphuma eshintshe. UJakobe uhlukile. UJakobe msha. Kungakuba yimpi msha. Kungakuba yingqikithi msha. Kungakuba yisimo msha. UJakobe unawo impi msha. UThixo uyayiqalisa le mpi. UThixo uyavela esenzweni. UThixo uyathinta. Indawo mshayi. UJakobe ushintshe ngaphakathi nangaphandle. Izenzo nezinyakazo zenyakazo zenyakazo zikaJakobe zihluke. Kuthiwa yisimo msha. UJakobe ulimele, uyakhubazeka njengoba ilanga livuka kuye.

Impi Msha

Ndile yinto yokuqala esiyibonayo – impi entsha. Yicinganise ukuthi kucima ubusuku; uJakobe ukhona ebusuku. Mhlawumbe isikhashana esifushane, angabona amathoshi kude njengoba umndeni wakhe uwela umfula. Uyabona emshweni 23, uthumile konke awayenako umfula. URakeli angawelekelela, umfazi amthandayo. NoLea, umfazi wakhe wokuqala. Abantwana bakhe, izincelemba zakhe, izilwane zakhe – konke awayenako wathumela, konke ngaphandle kwakhe. Umshwe 24 usitshela ukuthi uJakobe wayedwa ebusuku. Uyakhumbula ukuthi ushiye umcle Laban yakhe yena ekuya ekhaya. Umntwana owahlupheka ubuya! Nganzima, de facto, uJakobe, umntwana owahlupheka epharabaleni kaJesu, kukhona mi, mi eziningi, emihle kakhulu kuleyo parable yomlando kaJakobe eGenesis 32 no 33. Ndile yinto ekuya ekhaya. Kuyintlanganiso. Kuyintlanganiso nomshanaqhinga ayemhluphile, uEsau. UJakobe wamtshontsha uEsau imali, ifa lakhe, umlawulo wakhe, noEsau wabika ngalolo suku ukuthi uyambulala uJakobe. Kusukela ngaleso sikhathi, uJakobe atshata kabili, wazala abantwana abayishumi nanye. Waba ngumuntu omicebile nomphumelelayo, kodwa akazange abhekane nelokhu lakhe lwesine futhi manje sekumfikele. UJakobe wathumela umyalezo kuEsau, umshwe 3, ukuthi uyabuya ekhaya. Siyatshelwa emshweni 6 ukuthi abathunywa bakaJakobe, babuya, bathi, "uEsau uyasondela ukukwamukela yena 400 abantu naye." Kunjalo ke, umshwe 7, uJakobe wesaba; udikiwe.

Ukubuyisana noma Ukuliphalaza?

Naye sibona enza into esingakaze yenze ngaphambi. Emavesini 9 kuya ku 11, uJokobe uthandaza umthandazo ochaphazeke kakhulu emzini wakhe. Uthandaza umthandazo ochaphazeke kakhulu emzini wakhe. Ngumthandazo omde kakhulu ebukweni likaGenesise. Futhi unika ubufakazi obucacile bokuthi manje ungowakwaNkosi. Naye uthumela isipho ngemva kwesipho ngemva kwesipho ngendlela kaEsau, ethemba ukuthambisa inhliziyo yomshanawe. Ngoba umbuzo oxabisa kakhulu uyathini, "Kaya uEsau ekuhlanganyeleni ngokuvisisanayo? Kana uEsau ekuhlanganyeleni ukuze aziphindisele?" Ngumsebenzi wokufa noma wokuphila ukwebeba isibusiso, noko – ukuhlanganiswa noma ukuziphindisela? Yilowo umbuzo. Naye uJokobe uwedwa, ebunzini. Ukhona phakathi kwenduku nenqulu. Emva kwake ukuLabani. Akakwazi ukubuya kulowo msebenzi. Futhi uNkulunkulu wayesethi ekhayeni 31 umvesi 3 ukubuya ekhaya. Akakwazi ukubuya. Futhi phambi kwake ukuEsau namadoda akhe angu 400. Naye uJokobe uhlangana nesimo asazi kahle ukuthi anzeni ngaso. Kusa kuseSuku lokucindezeleka, ukuphela kwakhe. Ukhona esangweni lokufa. Yilowo ubusuku obumnyama komphefumulo kaJokobe. Akanazo zontanga; akanazo zicwangco. Akanazo zikhohliso; akanazo zikhandamizo. Udinwe izipokisi zakhe; ukhona ekugcineni kwakhe yena kanye nalapho, umvesi 24, lo muntu ongaqondakali uza kuye kulesi senzo sokugcina aze alwe naye kuze kuse.

Ukulwa noNkulunkulu

Kukhona 'ukwethulwa kwakhe, lo muntu angaziwa. Uvela kungekho ndawo yena wethukela uYakobe yena ulwa naye. Ulwa noYakobe. Lo yisithombe uRembrandt ayependa. Lo yisithombe esikhulu kunazo zonke ekuphileni kukaYakobe. Lo mpi wonke ebusuku ngenxa yempilo yakhe. Futhi kucace kusukela emigqeni yethu yonke, imigqezo 28 ne 30 ikakhulukazi, nencazelo encane eNcwadini yaseHosea isahluko 12 ukuthi lo akamuntu ojwayelekile. Kuthi lo yisibonifestiwo kaThixo uYena. Inkosana-ngqayikazi uJesu Kristo, omlondolozi uYakobe yena ekhona. Futhi lokhu kusinika isithombe esingaphithwa. uYakobe elwa noThixo yisithombe sokuphila kukaYakobe konke. Konke ukuphila kukaYakobe bekulokhu kukhona uThixo noYakobe. Futhi lapha, kucace kakhulu ukuthi uYakobe uku mpi noThixo.

Uyazi kukhona ibali engelikhumbula ngezikhathi ezithile ngemuuntu ogama lakhe uRobert Robinson. Futhi wagibela inqola eLondon yena ethemba ukugibela wodwa. Kodwa kwasiphambana naye kwakukhona umfazi omncane owayephethe ezandleni zakhe incwadi yomthandazo. Leyo yincwadi encane yomthandazo empgqeni ngamahemu nemithandazo. Futhi uRobinson akazange azivele ukhulume yena bagibela ngokuthula imizuzu embalwa. Futhi umfazi omncane waphula ukuthula. Waphonsa incwadi yasiphambana kwaRobinson yena wathi, "Kufanele ufunde lokhu. Lawa mazwi mahle." Futhi uRobinson wavula incwadi yena wafunda lawa mazwi, "Hamba wena umcwaningwa wazo zonke izibusiso, lungele inhliziyo yami ukucula Umusa wakho." Futhi ubuso bakhe baduma. Futhi lo mfazi angabona ukushintsha kobuso bakhe yena wathi, "Sawubona, uyawazi lawa mazwi?" Futhi wathi, "Bakazi, ngilobele lawa mazwi iminyaka engaphezu kwamashumi amabini nanhlanu, yena ngingathanda ukunika eliwaka lamazwe ukuze ngizwe namuhla okwake ngizwa ngaphambili. Ningathanda ukunika eliwaka lamazwe ukuze ngizwe namuhla okwake ngizwa ngaphambili."

Mhlawumbe ukhona apha namhlanje, yaye njengoRobert Robinson, kudala kakhulu oko kwenzeka kuwe. Kudala kakhulu oko wawahlangana naye uThixo. Kudala kakhulu. Yaye busy kakhulu yaye mhlawumbe ukhathazekile kakhulu kangangokuthi uvuka ekuseni ucinge, “Ndingafika njani apha? Ndingafika njani apha? Ndingasana njani kangaka ekuthetheweni kukaThixo? Ndingafika njani kule ngxaki? Yaye yonke le nto siyenzayo – ukushumayela nekucula nokuthandaza, ishiya inhliziyo yam icophele. Yaye icophele kakhulu yaye ibanda.” Uthini ngaloyo? Uyazi, mhlawumbe namhlanje uThixo uyaqhuma ebonakaleni. Mhlawumbe uThixo uya kuziphatha ngenhliziyo yakho ngendlela ayiphatha ngayo inhliziyo kaYakobe. Onga mhlawumbe sele ekwenzile. Mhlawumbe ulwela noThixo namhlanje nje. Kukho imfazwe kwintsimi yenhliziyo yakho yaye ubuza le mibuzo, “Kutheni? Kutheni uThixo? Kutheni uya kuzisa le nto ebomini bam? Kutheni uya kuvumela oku kwenzeke? Oku kunzima. Kutheni uya kuthi ukenzele oku? Kutheni ungakwazi ukuyisusa? Ubomini obandulele phambi kwam akunakuba ngobomi bam.” Ulwela noThixo. Ulwela noThixo. Le ndima ibeka phambi kwethu umfanekiso wsenhliziyo yomntu ngokuchasene noThixo. Intando yam ngokuchasene nentando kaThixo. Amaphupha am nezinqweno zam ngokuchasene nenqweno zikaThixo.

Uyakobe ulwela noThixo yaye yindlela uThixo asebenza ngayo. Singafunda into enye kule ndima. Njengoko uTim Keller esithi, "UThixo ngamanye amaxesha uyaswela ukusilungisa i ubomi." Uyafuna ukutshintsha? UThixo ngamanye amaxesha uyaswela ukusilungisa i ubomi kunokuba asithuthuzele i ubomi. Ngamthando, uyaswela ukuswela kuthi, yaye ngamthando, uyaswela Yakobe. UThixo uyamthanda Yakobe. Akukho mntu unokumkhvula Yakobe ezandleni zaThixo. Yaye kungenxa yokuba uThixo uyamthanda ukuba uyaswela ukuswela kuye ubomi obutshintshileyo. Yinto yokuqala esiyibonayo.

Inguqulelo entsha

I-thing yesibili esiyibonayo ukuthi le mpi iqhubeka njengokhuthazo olusha lukaYakobe. Kwaye phakathi kwale mpi, uThixo ekusebenziseni kwakhe ububele, uyabonakala enza into noYakobe njengoba ubaba enza ngaye lapho ebambana nomntwana wakhe kuba khona le mpi phakathi kukaYakobe noThixo. Lokhu ukulwa phambili nangemuva phambili nangemuva. Kwaye phakathi kwako, uThixo wenza into. Uyafika aze akanye futhi alukuhkanise isigokolo se-hip sikaYakobe kwivesi 25. Yindawo eqine kunazo zonke emzimbeni womuntu uYakobe ulimele khona. uYakobe ulimele ekulimaleni kwakhe. UThixo uyamphula uYakobe endaweni yakhe eqine kunazo zonke.

Ukuphula Indawo Eqine

Kuyindawo enjani leyo kuwe? Indawo yakho eqine. Kuyindawo enjani leyo kuwe? Into othi iyakunika ukuphakama phezu kwesibusiso; into othi ku CV yakho iyakunika ukwamukelwa nesibusiso othemba kuso. Into oyisebenzisa ngayo njengomwetha ukuze kukunike umuzwa wokulimala? Kuyindawo enjani leyo kuwe? uYakobe ulimele khona. Ulimele ekulimaleni kwakhe yaye kungenxa yokuthi uThixo uyasondela ekhayeni lakhe. USinclair Ferguson, ekhurumini yakhe emangalisayo kule ndima, uthe, "Uyabona ukuthi ukuze athole inhliziyo kaYakobe, uyabona ukuthi ukuze athole inhliziyo kaYakobe, uThixo ulungele ukukangananisa i-hip kaYakobe? Uyabona ukuthi ukuze athole inhliziyo kaYakobe, uThixo ulungele ukukangananisa i-hip kaYakobe?" Ngabe uke waba nawe impilo yakho iphumeke ekubambeni nguThixo? Ngabe uke waba nawe izinhlelo zakho noma amaphupho akho akhandwa? Kungaba enye yezinto ezibaluleke kakhulu ongayizwa kule ashishekile – ukuthi indlela ekhayeni lakho, njengoba uFerguson ethe, iphakathi kokukangananisa into oyenza uqine. Indlela ekhayeni lakho iphakathi kokukangananisa into oyenza uqine. Kuyindawo enjani leyo kuwe? Yilokhu uThixo akwenza noYakobe.

Ndipo ubona, yinto yokumsalisa; yinto yokumsalisa. Kuba ekugcineni nangokokuqala, uJake waphuka. Wonzwa ekulimaleni kwakhe, umuzo wakhe wokuzethemba wawonzwa, uk pride kwakhe kwathobiswa. Akakwazi ukuzenza lokhu kuphumelela. Akakwazi ukulawula le mpi. Unikwa injakazi ezo mvimbela ekulimaleni kwakhe ukuze akakwazi kuphumelela ngamandla akhe. Ubona, sonke sifuna ukushintsha, sonke sifuna ukushintsha, kodwa akekho kithi ofuna ukulimala. Sonke sifuna ukubabuswa. UJake uthi lapha, “Ngibusise.” Sonke sifuna loo busiso. Sonke sifuna ukubabuswa. Kodwa akekho ofuna ukucela. UJake lapha ekugcineni nangokokuqala wesaba ngokwanele ukucela. Uthi, “Ngeke ngikuyeke uze ungibusise.” Kuba uNkulunkulu uthi emva kokulimala, umvs 26, uNkulunkulu uthi kuye uJake, “Kufanele ungiyeke ngaphambi kokuphuka kwezolo.” Kwaye uNkulunkulu uthi, “Uma ubona uzuko lwam, uma ubona uzuko lwam, ngeke uphile.” Yilokho okwenzekayo. UJake wuthi, “Ngeke ngikuyeke uze ungibusise.”

Iphuzu Lokuguqula

Ubona, le mpi yaqala njani, uJake waqala ukuhlaselwa njani? UJake wasebenzisa njani ukulwisa? Yini iphlanu lakhe? Yini isimo sakhe? Yini isimiso sakhe? Yini umkhuthazo wakhe? UJake waqala ukuhlaselwa, wasebenzisa ukuzithemba kwakhe nokulawula kwakhe nawo wonke amandla akhe ukusuka. Kwaye ubona iphuzu lokuguqula lapha. Okuwukuphela kwakhe okwakuthinta emhlangeni, uJake waba yingane ekhomanayo. Waba yingane ekhomanayo. Abafundisi bonke bathi iphuzu lokuguqula, uJake aziwayo ukuthi wayenguNkulunkulu, umvs 25 uJake athi, "Ngeke ngikuyeke. Ngibusise, musa ungishiye." Ubona, kwakuyisikhathi senhlungu kwakuyisikhathi sobuthakathaka.

Derek Kidner, ekukhomentari yakhe eyaziwayo kuGenesis, uthi, "lapho uThixo wathinta isithende sikaJakobe kwaba ukunqotshwa nokunqoba konke kupakanywe ndawonye." Kwaba ukunqotshwa nokunqoba. Kwaba ukunqotshwa nokunqoba ngoba impendulo kaJakobe ekulimaleni, impendulo yakhe ekubandakanyeni okungaphandle kwenjongo uThixo awazisayo ebomini bakhe, kwaba ukunqotshwa okuletha ukunqoba; ngoba kuko, uJakobe uyabamana noThixo. Kulo kunqotshwa, uJakobe uyabamana noThixo.

Uyabona, isiqubulo sikaJakobe ubomini bakhe bonke zaziwa ngala mazwi – “Ngeke ndikuyeke uhambe ngaphandle kokuba ungibusise.” Inongo lakhe, ukhuthazeko lwakhe lokubusiswa kwaba ngumxholo wobomini bakhe. Uyabona, amazwi afanayo kodwa intingelo ihluke ngokupheleleyo. “Ngeke ndikuyeke uhambe ngaphandle kokuba ungibusise.” Uyaziwa la mazwi? “Thixo, musa ukuhamba. Musa ukusishiya.” Uyalamba uyakha phezulu kuThixo. Uyafuna uThixo ngaphezulu. Yilokho okwenzekayo kuJakobe apha.

Uyazi ukuba ndithetha ngomntwana wam, uMarshall, ngamanye amaxesha xa ndikufundisa. UMarshall uneminyaka emithathu nezingxle, ukwinqanaba elimnandi, yaye rhoqo xa ndilungiselela ukuphuma ekuseni okanye xa ndifika ekhaya ngokuhlwa, senza le nto siyenzayo kwakhona nangakhona nangakhona uMarshall akhangela umfazi wam, umama wakhe, yaye uthi, “Dad, yiyo umfazi wam yena yaye yiyo umama wakho. Yiyo umfazi wam yena yaye yiyo umama wakho!” Yaye uyazi, ezi ntlobo zezinto njengomzali ezifuna ukuba umzi ngqo! Yaye ke ndiyakhangela uMarshall yaye ndithembisa kuye ebhedini okanye kusofori okanye emhlabeni yaye ndimqolo yaye ndimtshikiza yaye ndithi, “Mfana, ufanele ukuqonda oku – yiyo umfazi wam yena yaye umama wakho!” Yaye siyaheha yaye siyaheha yaye siyaheha ngaphezu kokuba siyeha ngaphambili. Yaye rhoqo iphela ngendlela engaqhelekanga. UMarshall rhoqo – siya hamba phambili yaye siye hamba phambili yaye uMarshall uthi, “Dad, ungazikhulula izihlangu zakho.” Uthi, “Dad, ungazikhulula izihlangu zakho.” Yaye bathathe ixesha elincinane ukufumanisa ukuba wayethini. Yaye senza oku njengoko ndilungiselela ukuphuma ekuseni okanye njengoko ndifika ekhaya ngokuhlwa. Yaye uMarshall athi, uthi, “Dad, nceda ungahambi. Nceda uhlale. Nceda ungayi. Dad, nceda ube ekhaya.”

Uyazi nawo amazwi? “Nkosi, musa ukungishiya. Nkosi, nceda uhlale.” Uyazi, mhlawumbi ukhona apha namhlanje ekuseni kwaye ufuna ukutshintsha, ufuna ukwahluka, ufuna ukutsha. Ukudinwe kakhulu yena. Ukudinwe yintliziyo yakho. Ukhathazekile ngenxa yesono sakho. Ukhathazekile ngenxa yentshukumo yakho kude noThixo. Unomdla wokugonwa nguThixo. Unomdla wokuba noThixo afune indawo yokucasha kuwe. Unomdla wokuba noThixo angakushiyi. Unomdla wokuba noThixo angamshiyi. Uyazi na into yokuthi, “Musa ukungishiya, Thixo. Ndidla ngokunika okunikelwa ziingqameko ezaphukileyo. Ndidla ngokuchitha imali ngelo litye langa bread. Ndidla ngokusebenza ngelo litye langa lanelisi. Musa ukungishiya. Ndinike uYesu. Ekuseni xa ndivuka, ndinike uYesu.” Kwaye ubona, ngaloo mazwi kwivesi 26, siyazi ukuba utshintsho luye lwenzeka. Lo uYakobi uphambukeleyo. Ungumntu otshintshileyo. Uye wahlangabezana nobuso nobuso noThixo ophi kwaye uyamgona ngokuphelelwa.

Ubungakho Obutsha

Zingabuka nokushintshaniswa okwenzeka emavesini 27 kuya ku 29. I Nkulunkulu ithi evesini 27, "Igama lakho lithini?" Futhi kwabasebenzi bakudala, igama liqukethe into y ubuntu bomuntu othwele yona. "Igama lakho lithini?" Uthi, "Ungubani?" Omunye umbhali wathi, "ukusho igama lakho ngumsebenzi wokuziveza." "Ungubani?" Futhi u Yakobo, uyazi, usho izinto eziningi – "umgrabi weqakala; umkhohlisi; umdayisi." Futhi iminyaka kamuva lapho umprofethi u Yeremiya ebhala eyaziwa kakhulu incazelo yenhliziyo yabantu, uthi, yile yincazelo ekwiYeremiya 17 verse 9, "Inhliziyo iyakhohlisa ngaphezu kwazo zonke izinto izeke igule." I gama elihunyushwa "lyakhohlisa," ngalo gama lika Yakobo. "Inhliziyo u Yakobo izeke igule." Futhi igama lakhe yisivumo sakhe. Uthi evesini 27, yile yisivumo sakhe sokonakala, "Yakobo." Futhi um благословение ubona evesini 28, um благословение awamkayo igama elisha; yisaznamkhulu esisha, irekhodi elisha. Verse 28, "Igama lakho liyakuwa sala Yakobo, kodwa u Israeli, ngokuba uhlangane no Nkulunkulu wena namadoda waphumelela." Lowo igama elihle. "Zonke izinto zakho zidlule, Yakobo, zalezi zinto akuwena. Isaznamkhulu sakho, Yakobo, asikho emgwaqweni wakho; asikho ebhadalaneni lakho. Awu is shame yakho. Awu odlule. Kodwa isaznamkhulu sakho, u Israeli, iku kuqinisa kuka Nkulunkulu." I Nkulunkulu uyalwa. I Nkulunkulu uyasstrana. I Nkulunkulu uyaphumelela. Futhi ubona, lokhu kunika Yakobo lokhu kunika thina, esithandwa ku Kristo, indlela entsha yokuba nendlela entsha yokuphila. Yakobo ungumuntu oshintshileyo kusukela ngaphakathi.

Isimo Esisha

Futhi ekugcineni kokuqala kuka Yakobo. Ngingathi isigcawu esihle kunazo zonke yilesi Yakobo eqhuba evesini 31. “Ilanga lavuka kuye njengoba edlula ePenuweli, eqhuba ngenxa yehatha lakhe.” Ubona kukhona yile yisilonda sakhohliso. Lowo yisimo somuntu oshintshileyo. Lowo yisimo sokuphila kwesikristu – eqhuba ukuhamba kwabophephile ngomsebenzi ka Nkulunkulu. Ngaba nawe eqhuba? Ngaba nawe?

Bengi benu bayazi lokhu, kodwa eminyakeni emine eyedlule umama wami waxilongwa ukuthi unomdlavuza we-ovary. Kwaye lesi sikhathi sokugcina kube yisikhathi esimnandi. Uhlala eStarkville yena uyokwelashwa eJackson yena usekhona nathi isonto lonke njalo ngesonto lesithathu. Kwaye ngabantwana ababancane kanye nomama etown ukuze akwelashwe, indlu yethu ifana nekhefu ngalezo zinsuku. Kwaye kunosuku oluningi umama esenza kahle, kodwa kunosuku oluningi umama, ufika emngceleni wamandla akhe. Kanye nenye yezinto umama wami akhulume ngazo kakhulu yikuthi ufunde kangakanani ngothando lukaThixo ngaye ngokunakekela kwumy papa ngaye. Kwaye nina, uthi, njengosuku lomshado, nina, “Ngimnandi, nginezingubo ezimhlophe, um头发 wami wenziwe.” Njengokuthi, “Ngimnandi! Sinephupho. Sinezinhlelo. Sinempilo ngaphambi kwethu.” Njengokuthi, “Ewe, uyangithanda.” Kodwa embhedeni wasesibhedlela kanye nezinsuku ezimbalwa emva kwekhemo kanye nalapho ngihlala embhedeni usuku lonke, njengokuthi wayazi lokho, wayazi ukuthi uyamthanda, kodwa nje ucindezela ekhaya, “Ewe, uyangithanda.” Kwaye uthi ngalokho, ukuthi ufunde ngothando lukaThixo, ukuthi lokho kwenze umdlavuza waba yinto ebizayo ngaye. Wayazi, kodwa kwagxilisa ekhaya, “Akukhona ngokuthi ngiletha etafuleni. Kodwa yikuthi uThixo alethe etafuleni lami ngoJesu.”

Ngabe unekhubazi? Uyazi, umbhali oyedwa utshele wathi, “Qaphela abantu abab pity naqaphela abantu abab engiwa.” Ngabe unekhubazi? Uyaguliwa? Uyaphukile? Yileyo ndlela yokuphila kwamaKristu – abantu abagwegwele ngumsebenzi kaNkulunkulu ezimpilweni zabo nokubangela ukuxhuga phantsi komsindo kaNkulunkulu, thobekile phantsi komsindo wakhe, kubangela ukuxhuga benze ukwazi ubuthakathaka babo nobuthakathaka bokuthembela kuNkosi. Yini le uyenzayo ngako? Uma ukhona futhi okwedlule nob shame yemuva kwako kanye nev版 esakho Esau namadoda ayi-400 ekhona phambi kwako, uyazi yini umshayimthetho athi, Psalm 46 Uyazi ukuthi umshayimthetho uphela kanjani? “UNkulunkulu kaJokobha, UNkulunkulu kaJokobha ungukhuseli wethu.” UNkulunkulu kaJokobha ungukhuseli wethu. Futhi uma angaba ukhuseli kaJokobha, khona angaba ukhuseli nathi. Amen, yile iLizwi likaNkulunkulu. Masiye kuye ekuthandazeni.

Yasekhaya uBaba, sithandaza ukuthi ungabas megle ngemvumelelo yanamuhla, ukuthi ungasihlanga phakathi kokuhluleka kwethu, nokuthi ungasisbonisa ukuthi ukushintsha kungenzeka ngenxa yegracia lakho. Futhi sithandaza lokhu egameni likaJesu, amen.