Umlwano Wobomi Bakho

Umlofo Wobomi Bakho

Genesis 32:22-32

NguDavid Felker

Nceda nivule iiBible zenu kuGenesis isahluko 32; Genesis 32. Ifumaneka kwiphepha 27 kwi Bible yecawa phambi kwenu. Kwaye kanye ngaphambi kokuba sifunde, into enokucingelwa. Ubomi bam butshintshile ngonaphakade ndisengumntwana xa uyihlo wandazisa kwifilimu endiyithandayo kakhulu, ifilimu endiyibonileyo mhlawumbi amaxesha 923, uHoosiers. Kwaye imalunga neqela le-basketball lesekondari laseIndiana, iHickory Huskers. Kwaye ndiyayithanda ifilimu. Ndisengumntwana, ndiyithandile ngenxa yetheme elingumntu ovela phantsi, uDavide ngokuchasene noGoliathi. Kwaye ndiyithandile ngenxa yokugcizelela kwiqela ngaphezu komntu ngamnye. Kwaye ndiyithandile, kunjalo, ngenxa yengoma yangasemva eyamangalisa. Kodwa immdala ndisiya ukuyithanda ngakumbi. Kwaye kungenxa yokuba ibuza kwaye iphendula imibuzo eminingi, enzulu, yentliziyo malunga nokuhlengwa, malunga nothando, malunga nokulutha, malunga nobuhlobo.

Kukho imixholo emininzi kangaka kuyo yonke, kodwa ngumshicilelo ngotshintsho. Ngaba utshintsho luyenzeka? Kungenxa yokuba kukho le qela le-basketball elincinane lase-Indiana elizele ngokuziqhenya yaye lizele ngabantu ngabanye. Yaye ubuza, “Banokuba mnandi kangaka? Uphakamileyo kangakanani umlinganiso wabo? Banokuya kude kangaka? Ngaba banokuzithoba ngokwaneleyo ukuze babe ngakumbi?” Yaye kukho lo kqeqeshi mtsha, uNorman Dale, yaye ufikile enesidluliso esingaqinisekanga kodwa unikwe ithuba lesibini. Yaye ucinga, “Ngaba uweza kutshintsha? Ngaba uweza kwahluka? Ngaba idlulelo lakhe lingaphiliswa?” Yaye kukho inxila wasekhaya, uShooter, onako ukuqeqeshi uDale angabaza ukumthemba. Yaye mhlawumbi ngenxa yezinto zakhe, uenza umqeqeshi wakhe uncedisi yaye umhlobo wakhe othembekileyo. Yaye ubuzwa, “Ngaba uShooter anga phila ngabulu? Ngaba uweza kubangcono? Ngaba uweza kubangaphezulu? Ngaba uweza ubaba othembekileyo yaye olungileyo unyana wakhe angamfuna?” Yaye kulo lonke elishicilelo, unamathele kakhulu ukubona ezi zinto zenzekayo. Unamathele kakhulu ukubona utshintsho. Kodwa eli qela liqhenye yaye lo kqeqeshi enezinto zakhe yaye le nxila yasekhaya yonke iphukile. Yaye yonke imi njengomonzakeleyo. Yaye yonke ihamba ngendlela yayo. Kodwa eli shicilelo livula; eli shicilelo livula ibali elimnandi lotshintsho. Ndiyathanda iHoosiers kuba ikhumbuza intliziyo yam utshintsho luyenzeka.

Ngaba Utshintsho Luyenzeka?

Nokuba uyibonile loo movie okanye hayi, iyavumelana nathi kuba enye yemibuzo yobuntu kakhulu onokuyibuza, “Ndingayitshintsha? Ngaba utshintsho luyenzeka?” Wonke umntu uyajongana nayo. Ngumbuzo oqatha kakhulu wezemfundo onokuwubuza kumntu osemoyeni wakho. “Ngaba baya kutshintsha?” Mhlawumbi kukho umntu obekekileyo kuwe oye wafuneka utshintsho uyabuza, “Ngaba baya kutshintsha?” Kodwa ukuba uyayazi inhliziyo yakho, yenye yemithembeni ekhathaza kakhulu onayo. “Ndingayitshintsha. Ndingayahlukahluka. Ndingahlali njenga.” Kwaye uyazi, ucinga ukuba kuya kuba yinto elula kakhulu emhlabeni ukuzitshintsha. Njengokuba mhlawumbi kunzima ukuyitshintsha intsapho yakho. Njengokuba mhlawumbi ukhona apha kwaye intsapho yakho isingxolweni kwaye intsapho yakho ingaphandle kolawulo kwaye kunzima ukuyitshintsha intsapho yakho. Uyazi, abafundi, mhlawumbi zikhona izinto malunga nesikolo sakho ezingalunganga. Kunzima ukuyitshintsha isikolo sakho. Zikhona izinto malunga nobudlelwane bethu bonke kunye nobuhlobo. Kunzima ukuyitshintsha izinto esizaziyo ukuba ziyafuneka kutshintshwe malunga nobudlelwane bethu kunye nobuhlobo. Kodwa ucinga, “Ewe, kodwa ndingazitshintsha.” Kwaye yinto enzima kakhulu.

Kwaye njengoko ukhula, ndicinga, njengomKristu, uya thambeka ngakumbi. Unokuthambeka ngenxa yakho uqobo kwaye unokuthambeka ngenxa yobunzima obunzulu. Kwaye imikhwa nezikolo kunye neendlela ezingaqhelekanga zentliziyo yakho. Ufanele wenze ntoni ngaloo thambeko? Leyo yombuzo. Ukhathazekile ngotshintsho. Uyafuna ukutshintsha. Kodwa awunayo nayiphi na ingcamango yendlela yokwenza ukuba yenzeke ngendlela yokwenyani nendlala. IJenesis 32 yenye yee nkondlo zethu esizithandayo eBhayibhilini. Yindaba yendoda ekhathazekileyo eyona nto imbi. Yindoda ekhathazekileyo eyona nto imbi kwaye ukulwa naye ubomi bakhe. Oku kuhlobo lokuqhekeka kwendlela ephambili ebomini bakaYakobi apho afumanisa egweneleka noThixo. Olu luthe lekhefu lobomi bakhe kwaye yile nto uYakobi atshintshwa. Kwaye ke kaloku masinike ingqwalasela yethu eLizwini likaThixo. Ngaphambi kokuba senze, masiye kuye ekuthandazeni. Masithandaze.

Yise, sibulela kuwe ngokuba ngumhlobo wezono. Sibulela kuwe ngokuba ngamandla kubuthathaka. Sithandaza ukuze usirhulise kwinkathazo yethu yale nimkhondo yokuba sikhona nje enkosini. Yaye Yise, ngaba unganginceda ukuba silindele ukudibana nawe? Kwaye ngaba ungathetha ngoku, uMoya kaThixo, ungathetha ngam, uMoya nomoya? Sithandaza egameni likaYesu, amen.

IJenesis 32, uqala kwivesi 22. Eli ilizwi likaThixo:

Psalm 46

Ubusuku bungakanani u [Jakobe] wavuka wathatha iinkosazana zake ezimbini, iintshabalala zake ezimbini, neenkunzi zakhe ezilishumi elinanye, wawela umlambo iJaboko. Wazithatha wabagqithisa umlambo, nento yonke awayenayo. Waza uJakobe washiywa yedwa. Umntu wamlingana naye kude kuse kwediliya. Umntu wathi akubona ukuba akamoyisi uJakobe, wamthinta kwithambo lexolo, waza ithambo lexolo likaJakobe labekwa ngaphandle kwamalunga njengoko wayemlingana naye. Wathi, "Ndikhulule, kuba ilanga liphumile." Wathi uJakobe, "Ndingakukhululi ude undibushele." Wathi kuye, "Yintoni igama lakho?" Wathi, "UJakobe." Wathi, "Igama lakho alinakusibizwa uJakobe, kodwa uSirayeli, kuba ulwenele uThixo nangeenkovu, waza waoyisa." Wabuza uJakobe, "Ndicela undixelele igama lakho." Wathi, "Kutheni undivuza igama lam?" Wam bushela khona. Wathi uJakobe egama lakho elo ndawo iPeniyeli, "Kuba ndibonile uThixo ubuso nobuso, yena umphefumlo wam usindisiwe." Ilanga lavuka kuye njengoko edlula ePenuweli, ekhubazekile ngenxa yethambo lexolo.

Ngulo uLowo uThixo.

Nantsi into endifuna ukuba siyiqwalasele kusasa namhlanje njengoko sijonga lo mdlalo waziwayo phakathi ebusuku – uJakobe uphuma esitsha. UJakobe wahlukile. UJakobe umtsha. Kungenxa yomlo omtsha. Kungenxa yenkuthazo entsha. Kungenxa yendlela entsha. UJakobe unomlo omtsha. UThixo uyamqala. UThixo ungenelelayo. Kukho inkuthazo entsha. UJakobe uyatshintshwa ngaphakathi nangaphandle. Iintshukumo nentshukumo yentliziyo yakhe ziyahlukile. Kwaye kukho indlela entsha. UJakobe wenzakele yena ekhubazekile njengoko ilanga likhazekile kuye.

Umlo Omtsha

Kwayo into yokuqala esiyibonayo – imfazwe entsha. Yicinga ukuba kube mnyama ngokupheleleyo; uYakobe ukhona ebumnyameni. Mhlawumbi ubemnandi ixesha elifutshane, wabona amadangatye akude njengoko intsapho yakhe iwela umlambo. Uyabona kwivesi 23, uthumela yonke into awayenayo umla phambili. URakeli owayengumfazi wakhe omthandayo wayekhona. NoLea, umfazi wakhe wokuqala. Abantwana bakhe, abakhonzi bakhe, izilwanyana zakhe – yonke into awayenayo wathumela yena, yonke into ngaphandle kwakhe. Ivesi 24 isitshela ukuba uYakobe wayedwa ebumnyameni. Ukhumbula ukuba ushiye umkhuzeni wakhe uLabhan uze ekhaya. Umntu oyisikhilathi ubuya! Nganzima, ngokwenene, uYakobe, isikhilathi sepharable kaYesu, zininzi, iimpawu ezininzi kule pharable zembali kaYakobe kwiGenesis 32 no 33. Kwayo ke uza ekhaya. Kuya kubakho ukudibana. Kuya kubakho ukudibana nomzala awayemkhaphele, uEsau. UYakobe wamkhaphela uEsau imali yakhe, ilifa lakhe, intsikelelo yakhe, uEsau wabekisisa ngaloo mini ukuba uyambulala uYakobe. Ukususela ngoko, uYakobe atshata kabini, wazala abantwana abalishumi elinanye. Waba ngumntu ozizityebi nodume kakhulu, kodwa akazange abhekane nelizani lakhe kwaye ngoku sele mfikele. UYakobe wathumela umyalezo kuEsau, ivesi 3, ukuba uza ekhaya. Siyatshelwa ivesi 6 ukuba abathunywa bakaYakobe, babuya, bathi, "uEsau uza kukudibana nawe yena namadoda 400 naye." Kwayo ke kunjalo, ivesi 7, uYakobe uyabesaba; ukhathazekile.

Usilungiselelo okanye uNgenzelelo?

Kwaye ke siyambona enza into esingazange siyibone yenza ngaphambili. KwiiNayisesi 9 ukuya ku-11, uYakobi uthandaza owona thandazo lukhulu olukrazayo kubomzi wakhe. Uthandaza owona thandazo lukhulu olukrazayo kubomzi wakhe. Yithandazo elide kunazo zonke eKitabhenini yeGenesis. Kwaye usinika ubungqina obucacileyo bokuba ngoku uya kuulWandile. Kwaye emva koko uthumela isipho emva kwesipho emva kwesipho ngomlilo kuEsau, ethemba ukuthambisa intliziyo yomzala wakhe. Kuba lo mbuzo uxabisa imillion-dollar, "Ngaba uEsau uya kuza ngoxolo ukuze ahlangane? Okanye uya kuza ngenkosi ukuze aziphindisele?" Yibhizinisi yokuqala okanye yokufa ukuze ube lixhoba lesibusiso, kwaye ke – ukuhlanganiswa okanye ukuziphindisela? Leyo yumbuzo. Kwaye ke uYakobi ukedwa, ebunzini. Ukhona phakathi kwedwala nendawo enzima. Emva kwakhe kukho uLaban. Akakwazi ukubuyela kulomzi. Kwaye uThixo wathi kwisahluko 31 iNayisesi ya-3 ukubuya ekhaya. Akakwazi ukubuya. Kwaye phambi kwakhe kukho uEsau namadoda akhe 400. Kwaye ke uYakobi udibana nengxaki angenazi into yokwenza ngayo. Ngomso yusuku lokungxama, ekupheleni kobomzi bakhe. Ukhona emnyango wokufa. Le yobusuku obumnyama bomzulu kaYakobi. Akanazo zicebo; akanazo zicwangciso. Akanazo zikimkani; akanazo zistratagem. Ukhathazekile isack yubuciko bakhe; ukhona ekupheleni kwakhe kwaye yiyo, yiyo kanye loo mmento, iNayisesi ya-24, lo mntu ongaqondakaliyo uza kuye kule scenyi yokugqibela aze alwe naye de kube ukuntshontsha kwemini.

Ukulwa noThixo

Akukho intshayelelo kuye, lo ndoda ingaqondakanga. Uvela kwindawo engeyiyo ndawo, uza kuYakobe, ulwela naye. Ulwela noYakobe. Olu yisithombe esipeyintwe nguRembrandt. Olu yisithombe esiphakathi kobombu bukaYakobe. Olu ulwela ubusuku bonke ngenxa yobomi bakhe. Kwaye kucace ukusuka kwenye indawo yepasishi yethu, iivesi 28 ne30 ingakumbi, nakwinkomendi ezincinane kwisiqendu 12 sikaHosea ukuba lo akakho umntu nje ongqondakanga. Oku umbonakalo kaThixo uYena. Unogcino uNyana kaThixo, uYesu Kristo, omlondoloze waza wamkhosela uYakobe. Kwaye oku kubonelela kithi isithombe esingashiyiwa. UYakobe elwela noThixo yisithombe sobomi bukaYakobe bonke. Ubomi bukaYakobe bonke buhlala kubeThixo etyungana noYakobe. Kwaye apha, kucace kakhulu ukuba uYakobe ulwela noThixo.

Uyazi kukho ibali endihlala ndlucinga kalo ngamanye amaxesha malunga nendoda enegama uRobert Robinson. Watyala kwinqwelo eLondon waza wahlala yedwa. Kodwa kwisitulo sakhe saphambuka kwakukho intombazana encinane eyayiphethe ezandleni zayo incwadi yezithunywa. Oko yincwadi encinane yezithunywa emalunga neengoma neengubo zokuthandaza. URobinson akazange azive ethetha yaza bahamba ngokuthula imizuzu embalwa. Kwaye intombazana yabhala ukuthula. Wajula incwadi kwisitulo sakhe waza wathi kuRobinson, "Kufuneka uyifunde le. Lawa manzi mahle." URobinson wavula incwadi waza wafunda la manzi, "Hlala wena umthombo wazo zonke iintsikelelo, lungeleza intliziyo yam ukuze ndicule uMkhosi wakho." Waza ubuso bakhe bawa. Intomazana yakhona ukuqaphela utshintsho kubuso bakhe waza wathi, "Mnu, uyazazi la manzi?" Waza wathi, "Nkosazana, ndilubhale olu lwazi kwiminyaka engaphezu kwama-25 eyadlulayo, kwaye ndingazinika iindawo eziliwaka ukuze ndizive namhlanje into endiyivayo kwiminyaka eyadlulayo. Ndingazinika iindawo eziliwaka ukuze ndizive namhlanje into endiyivayo kwiminyaka eyadlulayo."

Mhlawumbi ukhona apha namhlanje, kwaye njengoRobert Robinson, kudala oko kwenzeka kuwe. Kudala oko kwaba nguwe noThixo. Kudala. Yaye busy kakhulu kwaye mhlawumbi ukhathazekile kakhulu kangangokuba uvuka ekuseni ucinge, “Ndingafika njani apha? Ndingafika njani apha? Ndingaleka njani kangaka kude nentliziyo yothixo? Ndingangena njani kule ngxaki? Yaye yonke le nto siyenzayo – ukushumayela nokucula nokuthandaza, iyalishiya intliziyo yam iflethi. Yaye ikhukuliswe kakhulu yaye ibanda.” Uyenziwa njani ngaloo nto? Uyazi, mhlawumbi namhlanje uThixo uya kuphuma kwisenzeko. Mhlawumbi uThixo uya kujamelana nentliziyo yakho ngendlela ayenzayo ngoJakobe. Okanye mhlawumbi uyenze. Mhlawumbi ulwela noThixo namhlanje. Kukho idabi kwintsimi yentliziyo yakho yaye ubuza le mibuzo, “Kutheni? Kutheni uThixo? Kutheni uya kuzisa le nto ebomini bam? Kutheni uya kuvumela oku kwenzeke? Oku kunzima. Kutheni uya kuthi oku? Kutheni uya kuthatha? Ubomi obandulele phambi kwam kodwa akunakuba ngobulungisa bam.” Ukulwela noThixo. Ulwela noThixo. Lo mpasso ubeka phambi kwethu umzekelo wentliziyo yomntu ngokuchasene noThixo. Intando yam ngokuchasene nentando kaThixo. Amaphupha am kunye nezifiso zam ngokuchasene noThixo.

UJakobe ulwela noThixo yaye yindlela uThixo asebenza ngayo. Singafunda into enye kulo lombhalo. NjengoTim Keller esevile, "UThixo ngamanye amaxesha ulwela kuthi ukuze singene ekuphileni okutshintshileyo." Uyafuna utshintsho? UThixo ngamanye amaxesha ulwela kuthi ukuze singene ekuphileni okutshintshileyo endaweni yokuthuthuzela kuthi ekuphileni okutshintshileyo. Ngamthando, ulwela kuthi, yaye ngamthando, ulwela uJakobe. UThixo uyamthanda uJakobe. Akukho mntu unokumphanga uJakobe ezandleni zikaThixo. Yaye kungenxa yokuba uThixo umthanda yena ulwela kuye ekuphileni okutshintshileyo. Yinto yokuqala esiyibonayo.

Unesikhuthazo Esitsha

Into yesibili esibonayo kukuthi le mpi iqhubeka njengenkuthazo entsha kaYakobe. Ngakho phakathi kweli chweba, uThixo ngobubele bakhe, ubonakala esenza into noYakobe njengoko uyise esenza ngonyana wakhe xa ebambana ngomntu kuba kukho le mpi phakathi kukaYakobe noThixo. Oku kubuyela emva naphambili, emva naphambili. Kwaye ke phakathi koko, uThixo wenza into. Uloluleka isandla sakhe, wamkhapha, waza waw dislocation umkhono kaYakobe emgudleni wakhe kwivesi 25. Le yeyona ndawo inamandla kakhulu emzimbeni womntu noYakobe wenzakala apho. uYakobe wenzakala kwindawo yakhe yamandla. UThixo waphula uYakobe kwindawo yakhe eyomeleleyo.

Ukuphula Indawo Eyomeleleyo

Ngeyiphi indawo le ingaba yeyakho? Indawo yakho eyomeleleyo. Ngeyiphi indawo le ingaba yeyakho? Into ocinga ukuba iya kukunika umlenze- phezulu kwentsikelelo; into oyibubuyo ku resume yakho ocinga ukuba iya kukunika ukwamkelwa nentsikelelo oinqwenelayo. Into oyisebenzisayo njengomntu oqhuba ukulwa ukuze kukunike imvakalelo yamandla? Ngeyiphi indawo le ingaba yeyakho? uYakobe wenzakala apho. Wenzakala kwindawo yakhe yamandla yaye kungenxa yokuba uThixo hamba ngqo kwintliziyo yakhe. USinclair Ferguson, kwinkuthelo yakhe emangalisayo kule ndima, uthe, "Uyabona ukuba ukuze abe nentliziyo kaYakobe, uyabona ukuba ukuze abe nentliziyo kaYakobe, uThixo ulungele uk dislocation umkhono kaYakobe? Uyabona ukuba ukuze abe nentliziyo kaYakobe, uThixo ulungele uk dislocation umkhono kaYakobe?" Ngaba uqhekeze ubomi bakho bube ngaphandle kwe ntanyana nguThixo? Ngaba oye wabeka iingcwangciso zakho okanye amaphupha akho dislocation? Kungaba enye yezinto ezibalulekileyo onokuziva le matsatsi – ukuba indlela entliziyon yakho, njengoko uFerguson esitsho, kuk dislocation kwento eyenza ukuba ube namandla. Indlela entliziyon yakho kuk dislocation kwento eyenza ukuba ube namandla. Ngeyiphi indawo le ingaba yeyakho? Yinto uThixo awenza noYakobe.

Kwaye ubona, kukuzoba mnene; kukuzoba mnene. Kuba ekugqibeleni nangoku okokuqala, uYakobe uphukile. Ulimele kwamandla akhe, isivumo sakhe sokuphila siyalimele, uk pride uyathobiswa. Akanakho ukonza olu loyiso. Akanakho ukulawula olu lwa. Unikwa inzakaleko eya kuthintela ekubeni nakho ukunqoba ngamandla akhe. Ubona, sonke sifuna ukutshintsha, sonke sifuna ukutshintsha, kodwa akukho namnye osafuna ukulimele. Sonke sifuna ukubaswa. UYakobe uthi apha, “Ndibusise.” Sonke sifuna loo bendiselo. Sonke sifuna ukubaswa. Kodwa akukho namnye ofuna ukucela. UYakobe apha ekugqibeleni nangoku okokuqala unamathele ngokwaneleyo ukucela. Uthi, “Andingakuyeki ngaphandle kokuba undibusise.” Kuba ingxelo ithi emva kokulimele, umzekelo 26, uThixo athi kuYakobe, “Kufuneka undiyeke phambi kokuba kuphele imini.” Kwaye uThixo uthi, “Ukuba ubona uzuko lwam, ukuba ubona uzuko lwam, awuyi kuphila.” Yiloo nto iyenzekayo. UYakobe uthi, “Andingakuyeki ngaphandle kokuba undibusise.”

Iphuzu lokuGuqula

Ubona, xa lo mlo waqala, xa uYakobe waqala ukuhlaselwa, wenza njani uYakobe? Yawuphi umdlalo wakhe? Yawuphi isimo sakhe? Yawuphi isimbo sakhe? Yawuphi umkhuthazo wakhe? Xa uYakobe waqala ukuhlaselwa, wasebenzisa ukuzimandla kwakhe okungaguquki kunye nokulawula kwakhe konke ukubaleka. Kwaye ubona iphuzu lokuGuqula apha. Yakhe nje athintwa kwinyonga, uYakobe ube ngumntwana onamathelayo. Ube ngumntwana onamathelayo. Bonke ababhali bengxelo bathi iphuzu lokuGuqula, xa uYakobe wazi ukuba nguThixo, umzekelo 25 xa uYakobe athi, "Andingakuyeki. Thixo, ndinguye, musa undishiye." Ubona, kwakumzuzu wobuhlungu kwakumzuzu wokuthamba.

Derek Kidner, kwikhommentari yakhe eyaziwayo kwiNtsukapho, uthi, "xa uThixo wachukumisa isithende sikaYakobe kuvalekile ukoyiswa nohlobo olulodwa." Ukuba xa uThixo wachukumisa isithende sikaYakobe, kwaba kukoyiswa nohlobo. Kwaba kukoyiswa nohlobo kuba impendulo kaYakobe kwingozi, impendulo yakhe kwintlungu yokungahambi kakuhle uThixo awazisayo ebomini bakhe, kwaba kukoyiswa okuletha uhlobo; kuba kuko, uYakobe uyabamana noThixo. Kulo koyiswa, uYakobe uyabamana noThixo.

Uyabona, isiqubulo sikaYakobe ubomi bakhe bonke zaziwa ngamazwi – “Andingakuyeki uhambe ngaphandle kokuba undibusise.” Umnqweno wakhe, inkokheli yakhe ybusiso waba ngumxholo wobomi bakhe. Uyabona, amazwi afanayo kodwa intsingiselo yahluke ngokupheleleyo. “Andingakuyeki uhambe ngaphandle kokuba undibusise.” Ngaba uyawazi la mazwi? “Thixo, musa ukuhamba. Musa ukundishiya.” Uyalambela uThixo. Uyathanda uThixo. Yiloo nto eyenzekayo kuYakobe apha.

Uyazi ndithetha ngonyana wam, uMarshall, ngamanye amaxesha xa ndikufundisa. UMarshall uneminyaka emithathu kunye nesiqingatha, ukwinqanaba elimnandi, kwaye rhoqo xa ndilungiselela ukuphuma ekuseni okanye xa ndifika ekhaya ngokuhlwa, senza le nto siyenzayo kwakhona nangakhona nangakhona uMarshall akhangela u wife wam, umama wakhe, aze athi, “Dad, yiyo u wife wam yena yona umama wakho. Yiyo u wife wam yena umama wakho!” Kwaye uyazi, ezi ntlobo zezinto njengomzali ezifuna ukuba uziqonde! Kwaye ke ndiya khangela uMarshall yena ndimthumele phezu kwebhedi okanye kusoofas okanye emhlabathini aze ndimlale yena ndimkhathaze aze ndithi, “Mfana, ufanele uqonde oku – yena u wife wam yena umama wakho!” Kwaye siya hleka aze sihleke aze sihleke ngaphezu kokuba sihlabele ngaphambili. Kwaye rhoqo iphela ngendlela ephambene. UMarshall rhoqo – siya hamba phambili aze uMarshall athi, “Dad, ungazikhulula izihlangu zakho.” Athi, “Dad, ungazikhulula izihlangu zakho.” Kwaye kwathatha ixesha elincinane ukufumanisa ukuba wayethetha ntoni. Kwaye senza oku njengoko ndilungiselela ukuphuma ekuseni okanye njengoko ndifika ekhaya ngokuhlwa. Yena uMarshall athi, uthi, “Dad, nceda ungahambi. Nceda uhlale. Nceda ungayi. Dad, nceda ube ekhaya.”

Uyazi nawo loo mazwi? “Thixo, musa ukundishiya. Thixo, nceda uhlale.” Uyazi, mhlawumbi ukhona apha namhlanje ekuseni kwaye ufuna ukutshintsha, ufuna ukwahluka, ufuna ukutsha. Ukudinwa kakhulu yena. Ukudinwa yintliziyo yakhe. Ukhathazekile ngenxa yesono sakhe. Ukhathazekile ngenxa yeentshukumo zakhe ezikude noThixo. Unqwenela ukwanga noThixo. Unqwenela uThixo abe yindawo yokufihla kuye. Unqwenela uThixo angamshiyi. Unqwenela uThixo angamshiyi. Uyazi ukuba yintoni na ukuthi, “Musa ukundishiya, Thixo. Ayifuni into ezo zixhobo ziqhekekileyo zinokunika. Ayifuni kuchitha imali kwinto engeyi sonka. Ayifuni kusebenza kwinto enganelisiyo. Musa ukundishiya. Nika Jesu. Xa ndivuka ekuseni, nika Jesu.” Kwaye ubona, ngamazwi abo kwivesi 26, siyazi ukuba utshintsho olwenziwe. Olu uYakobi uhlukile. Ungumntu otshintshileyo. Udlule ubuso nobuso noThixo ophi kwaye ngoku umkatelela ngokuphelelwa.

Ubungakho Obutsha

Kwaye jonga utshintshiselwano olwenzeka kwiivesi 27 ukuya 29. UThixo wathi kwiivesi 27, "Yintoni igama lakho?" Kwaye kwabaPhambili, igama liqulethe into yecala lomntu owathwele yona. "Yintoni igama lakho?" Uthi, "Ngubani na wena?" Umthetheyi omnye wathi, "ukubiza igama lakho ngumsebenzi wokuzibonela." "Ngubani na wena?" Kwaye uYakobe, uyazi, wena ubamba izinto ezininzi – "umbambazeli weqakala; umqhophisi; umdayisi." Kwaye iminyaka ngamva xa umprofeti uYeremiya ebhala enye yenkcazo edumileyo yentliziyo yomntu, wathi, yile yivesi 17 yesi-9, "Intliziyo ikhohlisa ngaphezu kwayo yonke into kwaye igula ngokungapheli." Igama eliguqulwa "likhohlisa," yile igama likaYakobe. "Intliziyo uYakobe kwaye igula ngokungapheli." Kwaye igama lakhe libovumikazi. Wathi kwiivesi 27, yile yibovumikazi lakhe lesono, "Uyakobe." Kwaye intsikelelo owamkayo kwiivesi 28, intsikelelo awamkayo igama elitsha; yile ubuntu obutsha, irekodi elitsha. Iivesi 28, "Igama lakho alisayi kuphinda libe uYakobe, kodwa uSirayeli, kuba ulwenzile uThixo noadwe wabaphumelela." Lile ilizwi elihle. "Yonke into malunga nexesha lakho elidlulileyo, uYakobe, loo nto akusekho wena. Ubuntu bakho, uYakobe, akusiyo kwimithwalo yakho; akusiyo ebhankrupt yakho. Awuso kuk shame yakho. Awuso kukudlule kwakho. Kodwa ubuntu bakho, uSirayeli, iku kuThixo ongaguquki." UThixo uyabalwa. UThixo uyazabalaza. UThixo uyaphumelela. Kwaye ubona, oku kunika uYakobe noko kunika thina, sibathandwa ekristu, indlela entsha yokuba nendlela entsha yokuphila. uYakobe ungumntu otshintshileyo ngaphakathi nangaphandle.

Isimo Esitsha

Kwaye ekugqibeleni and finally and very briefly, isimo sikaYakobe. Ndicinga ukuba isenzeko esihle kunazo zonke kukuYakobe eqhuba ngxi kwiivesi 31. “Ilanga lavuka phezu kwakhe njengoko edlula ePenuweli, eqhuba ngxi ngenxa yenyonga yakhe.” Ubona kukhona lecala lokholo. Lile isimo somntu otshintshileyo. Lile isimo sobomi bamakristu – eqhuba ngxi ukuhamba kwabo baphilisiweyo ngumsebenzi kaThixo. Ngaba unawo umqhube ngxi? Ngaba unawo umqhube ngxi?

Abantu abaninzi ba yazi oku, kodwa malunga neminyaka emine eyadlulayo umama wam wafunyaniswa ukuba unomhlaza we-ovarian. Kwaye eli xesha lifutshane lidlulileyo libe yixesha elimnandi. Uhlala eStarkville yaye ufumana unyango lwakhe apha eJackson yaye uka hona nathi iintsuku eziliwumi lonke inyanga yesithathu. Kwaye ngabantwana ababini abancinci nomama etown iyeza, indlu yethu i ncoko yezilwanyana kwi iintsuku zeli xesha. Kwaye kukho iintsuku ezininzi apho umama esenza kakuhle, kodwa kukho iintsuku ezininzi apho umama, afikelela emngciphekweni wakhe. Kwaye enye yezinto umama wam athetha ngazo kakhulu yindlela awayifunda ngayo uthando lukaThixo kuye ngokunyamekela kwentate wam kuye. Uyazi, umama wam uthi, njengexesha lomtshato, uyazi, “Ndicula, ndinxibe isuti emhlophe, iinwele zam zenziwe.” Njenge, “Ndonwabile! Sinephupha. Sinazo iizicwangciso. Ubomi bufutshane phambi kwethu.” Njenge, “Ewe, uyandithanda.” Kodwa ebhedini lesibhedlele kunye neentsuku ezimbalwa emva kwe chemotherapy kunye nexesha lokulala ebhedini usuku lonke, njenge wayazi ukuba, wayazi ukuba uyamthanda, kodwa ucinezela nje ekhaya, “Ewe, uyandithanda ngokwenene.” Kwaye umama wam uthi ngaloo nto, ukuba uyifundile ngothando lukaThixo, loo nto yenza umhlaza waba yinto ekhethekileyo kuye. Wayazi, kodwa waqalisa ekhaya, “Akuzii malunga nale nto ndiyizisayo etafuleni. Imalunga nale nto uThixo ayizisayo etafuleni ngenxa yam eYesu.”

Ngaba unyanukulu? Uyazi, umbhali omnye utshilo, “Lumka ngubani oyintshaba yakho, lumka ngubani onomntu onokumthanda.” Ngaba unyanukulu? Ngaba wenzakele? Ngaba wophukile? Yenzo yobomi bamaKristu – amadoda namabhinqa aphazanyiswe ngumsebenzi kaThixo ebomini babo waza wabenza ba nyukulu phantsi ngesandla esinamandla sikaThixo, bathobekile phantsi ngesandla sakhe esinamandla, babenezizathu zokunyukulu ngokuziwa kwabo ubuthathaka nokuxhomeleka kwabo kuThixo. Kwaye yintoni omele kuzenza ngayo? Ukuba ukhona apha kwaye icala lakho elidlulileyo neentloni zakho zisele emva kwako, nenguqulelo yakho kaEsau namadoda akhe angama-400 ikhona phambi kwako, uyazi ukuba umshumayeli utshilo, Psalm 46 Uyazi ukuba isiphelo salo msindisi ntoni? “UThixo kaYakobe, uThixo kaYakobe ngusikhuseli sethu.” UThixo kaYakobe ngusikhuseli sethu. Kwaye ukuba angaba usikhuseli kaYakobe, ngoko angaba usikhuseli nathi. Amen, eli lilizwi likaThixo. Masiye kuye ngomthandazo.

Thixo wethu kaZulwini, sithandazela ukuba usimangalele ngeendaba ezimnandi namhlanje, ukuze usihlangabele phakathi kokusilela kwethu, waza usibonisile ukuba utshintsho lunokwenzeka ngenxa yenceba yakho. Kwaye sithandazela eli Jesu’ igama, amen.